Happy New Year! 

I'm back to enjoying eating healthy!

It’s not a New Year’s resolution, it’s more of a flat out, I’ve had enough . . . it’s time to create something different decision.

For me, 2009 was about taking Spiritual responsibility for my life and seeing myself as the creator that I truly am.  About accepting that I’ve created every aspect of what I’m living and even bigger for me . . . accepting that I can change and recreate every aspect of it anew. 

That second part has been the hard one for me.  I don’t know how to explain but it’s easy for me to accept that I’ve created where I am, but not so easy to believe that I can create something different.  I know that sounds silly, but it’s how I’ve felt in the past.  2009 has been about me coming into my own power, me finally being able to see that I am the creator, I am the one who chooses what I experience.

So a couple of days ago, I stepped on the scale, I knew I was getting up there, and I wasn’t surprised that the scale reflected back to me the highest weight of my life.  I’ve regained everything I released before and 10 pounds on top of that.  I’m only 20 pounds away from a benchmark I never, ever, EVER want to experience.  In seeing the number on the scale and accepting responsibility for obtaining it, I began to feel a quite determination.  I felt determined to stop the upward climb I’ve been on and instead return to what I know works for me and go the other way.

No fireworks, or rockets declaring I’ve had enough, just a subtle, quiet determination that I want to create something different, completely different, and the wonderful feeling of confidence that I can do exactly that.

So that day, I began loading on the vegetables and enjoying every minute of it.  In fact I'm surprised how great they’ve been tasting considering it's winter and none of them are really fresh like in summer.  I’ve made big pots of veggie soups and stews, loaded with fresh vegetables and seasonings, but very little fat.

I've got such a wonderful mind set that even veggies I was never that fond of in the past are tasting wonderful to me now.  I usually feel that there are no fresh vegetables when there is snow on the ground.  But I’ve discovered that was just an excuse for not eating healthy in the winter, there are lots of fresh vegetable choices when the snow is here, maybe not as many as in summer, but still lots of choices!

I went back to loosely following the Weight Watchers Points system.  I like counting points and I know that for me it works, I do release weight when I’m using it.  I don’t feel the need to go to the “support group” classes.  I find the weighing in each week focuses too much on where I am, and the lectures tend to sound more fearful to me than joyous and expectant.  But I do love the plan.

I started using a food journal again, recording what I eat and enjoying it too.  However, this feels different, I'm not being anal about it, I'm just doing it because it's fun.  I don't care if I balance the points perfectly, or if I go over or under a bit, I just am having fun playing with points, eating healthier and drinking lots and lots of water.

All of that feels wonderful to me right now, but being an Aber I know that none of the action I take is as important as how I feel about the situation.  It’s my vibration of confidence, joy and delightful expectation that is changing my life.

“If you are experiencing a physical condition that has your attention, you are, through your attention to your current condition, projecting it into your future experience.  But, by focusing on a different future experience, you are now activating that different experience; and as you project that changed experience into your future, you leave your current experience behind.”  Excerpted from Abraham-Hicks Ask and It Is Given Perpetual Flip Calendar

So the most wonderful thing is not what I’m eating, it’s that I’ve got my focus on my Heart’s Desire back.  I feel so confident that I can do this now.  I’m excited about the weight just melting off my body.  I know I can create it, and more importantly I don’t feel like it’s something illusive or short-lived anymore.

I know that all I have to do to stay focused and determined is to make a decision each day to allow my body to find it's perfect weight.  It's not a lifelong battle, it's just a daily decision to stay focused and determined.

And I'm so happy to be focused on “what will be” instead of what “appears” now!  I'm looking forward to being able to walk for enjoyment and meditation again!  I'm excited to begin fitting into my clothes and shoes easily again.  I'm excitedly expecting my flexibility to return and even be improved over the past!  I'm thrilled about developing new tastes and desires! 

I can feel my passion for my Heart’s Desire of releasing weight and allowing my body to find it’s own perfection returning to me and it feels wonderful!

“Every cell in your body has a direct relationship with Creative Life Force, and each cell is independently responding. When you feel joy, all the circuits are open and the Life Force or God Force can be fully received. When you feel guilt or blame or fear or anger, the circuits are hindered and the Life Force cannot flow as effectively. Physical experience is about monitoring those circuits and keeping them as open as possible. The cells know what to do. They are summoning the Energy.”  Excerpted from an Abraham-Hicks workshop in Chicago, IL on Sunday, November 2nd, 1997

I have amazing confidence in 2010 being the year I really start creating a new version of my life!  I get excited just thinking about “2010”, it’s going to be a powerful year for me and I’m sure for you too.

I do have one resolution, or really a goal for this year . . . to share it more with you!

I’m back on track, I’m creating a new body, a new life, and I’m hoping you’ll join me for the journey!

Much love,
Tigerlily