Happy Holidays,

I’m huge!  I'm bigger than I’ve ever been before in my life.  And yet my weight, recently has became an equally huge gift to me.  I’ve mentioned this before, that when I look in the mirror I cannot deny what a powerful creator I am simply because of physical proof of the amount of extra weight on my body. 

Creating is creating and every ounce is there, staring back at me as evidence that I am a powerful creator.  Not creating what I want necessarily, but powerfully creating what I’ve been focused upon for all these years.

I look around and most people couldn’t possibly eat enough to get to where I am, weight wise, today.  With my mind I have turned my body into a fat storing machine extraordinaire.  Oh, I know the average American is overweight, but the majority of them are between 20 and maybe 100 pounds overweight.  I’m not talking about average, I’m talking about extraordinary weight.

I know this is going to sound funny, but just as a professional athlete must believe in their ability to be successful, they must use mental focus and determination to obtain success, a truly fat person uses the same skills, they just don’t do it consciously.  To really be extraordinarily fat, one must believe in their ability to be fat wholeheartedly.  Like the athlete must believe in their ability to win, fat people must believe that fat is a distinctly possible reality for them.

The average person may be able think of themselves with a few extra pounds, they may be fearful that if they overindulge over the holidays they may put on 5 or even up to 20 extra pounds, but to carry around the extra weight I carry would be incomprehensible to them.  I know because I occasionally see it in their eyes when they look at me, not disapproval . . . incomprehension.  “How did you create that?”

For the truly fat person, that is the question.  Because in my experience we don’t believe we really created it at all.  Let’s face it, if we really could connect that that bag of chips was a direct link to the huffing and puffing after climbing a set of stairs, we’d drop the bag.  There is a mysterious thing that happens when we pop open that bag, we honestly don’t intellectually get that those wonderful tasting chips can harm us in any way.  How could something that feels so good in that moment be bad for us?  As we fill our mouths, we disassociate what is going in our bodies with what extra is on our bodies.  Until the delight turns to guilt and pervasive social ideas of what we are doing sinks in and that vibration turns our bodies into fat making machines.

But we don’t think about that, generally I think we feel like gaining weight was something that happens to us.  Either food is simply not our friend, or our body is just built the way slender peoples bodies are, or the Universe has worked against us, or it’s the fault of the diet industry, blah, blah, blah. 

Whatever the reason, we can’t feel the connection between being truly responsible for what we’ve done to ourselves because we can’t honestly understand how we’ve done it.  The link between our actions and our body is never truly made in our minds.  Because let’s face it, if it did connect those culturally believed dots, we’d change our actions and from what everyone says . . . change our bodies.

The honest truth is it isn’t a link between our actions and our bodies that created the extra weight.  It’s not that bag of chips, or our lack of exercise, it’s our thinking.  Our belief that we are capable of creating excessive weight created it for us.  Our focus upon it’s possibility is the catalyst that creates it as a reality.

We must understand that just like that professional athlete, there is something special about us, our ability to create what we strongly focus upon in a powerful way.  We tend to give credit to the hugely successful and famous as the only powerful creators in the world.  We don’t see that there are incredibly powerful creators in plus size shops, prisons, AA meetings, soup kitchens, third world countries and hospitals too.  In fact when you take the positive/negative connotation off of creating, it’s possible to see magnificent creating at it’s purest form everywhere you look.  In extremes of every conceivable form.

Until I really got that I created my magnificently obese body in all it’s glory, and have begin to take responsibility for the powerful energy it has taken for me TO create it, I had no chance of changing it permanently.

It’s why diets don’t really work, because they too simply take the responsibility out of my hands.  If I do X, Y and Z for the rest of my life, I will be thin.  Yet, I’ve learned no matter what X, Y and Z is, when it is someone else’s X, Y and Z (or program, or book, or diet plan, or idea) it won’t work for any length of time for me. 

So what I learned recently is until I fully accept my powerful artistic responsibility for creating where I am now, all of it, magnificently, I will continue to create more of it.  I must accept that every single ounce of extra fat on my body is a manifestation of my amazing, glorious power to create anything I focus upon intently in my life.  Even the stuff I don’t want to create.

Most people do not realize that thinking about something is inviting the essence of that "something" into their experience.  Pg 23 of Abraham-Hicks "The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent" 

Within that acceptance comes a huge gift,  If I accept that I had the power to create it, then I’ve also got to accept that I have the power to change it and create the opposite.  It really IS that simple.

I have thought my way into morbid obesity, I therefore CAN think my way to slender, energetic and vibrant.  Through my vibration of strong focus on confusion, pushing against and easily attracting weight, I have created just that in physical.  Therefore by changing my vibration to one of strong focus on understanding, allowing vibrancy and health and easily releasing weight, I can attract that too.

Metabolism is vibrational response to your moment in time.  Metabolism is the way the Energy is moving through your body.  And so, everything is in response to the way you feel - everything is.  Everything is mind over matter.  Every disease is mental first.  Everything is about thought.  Everything is about vibration.  Everything is about the way you feel. Practice scenarios that feel good - and never mind reality.  Reality is only a brief moment in time that you keep repeating.  Excerpted from the Abraham-Hicks workshop in Silver Spring, MD on Saturday, May 11th, 2002

I now see myself as the CREATOR, of my life, a powerful extension of Source with proof, looking at me from my mirror, that I am capable of creating whatever I want. 

Sending much love and the blessing of acceptance of your own creative power,

Tigerlily