Hello Friends,

I have been all over the map lately with releasing weight and everything else in my life.  I’m in a place of big upheaval and I am so welcoming the changes that are coming.  I’ve been asking for fresh awareness for a while now and it’s coming in from every direction.  The wonderful thing is that as it comes in from each area of my life, I can see how it’s all interconnected. 

This Spiritual/Physical life is like a tapestry with a million different colored threads coming together to create an amazing picture.  I’m not too sure about the people who actually create tapestries, but in my case, I can never tell how one colored thread is going to interact with another, but I’m beginning to understand they are all connected.  Each one of them a path to the answer to the others. 

What I’m trying to say here is that it’s come to my awareness lately that all of the areas of my life that I’m less than thrilled with are all part of a Spiritual plan to guide me toward the one big answer to them all.  I’m beginning to see that there is only one answer.  Which Abraham-Hicks has been saying for years. 

Someone said, "I have 27 questions." And we said, we have one answer: You like knowing that you are the creator of your experience. You like knowing that everyone else is too. You like knowing that Source supports you in everything that you desire, and that there is nothing that you can identify, whether you articulate it or not, that the Universe withholds from you. All things are given in the moment that you ask.  When you are specific about what you want, and you find that Path of Least Resistance, and Energy flows through you toward your inspired idea--that is life at its very best.  Excerpted from Abraham-Hicks Stop Fixing And Start Savoring
 

Quite honestly the simplicity of their message sometimes tends to be too simple for me, I’ve found recently that it’s a little more complex for me than “just look for the better feeling thought”.  I’ve been doing that for years and there haven’t been the big changes in my life for which I've been looking.  Not the changes I’ve been wanting anyway and I’ve never been able to figure out what is blocking me.

So recently I’ve been studying how to change my relationship with money, another colored thread in my life.  I listened to a couple of free teleclass calls in the last week from Elyse Hope Killoran.  In a couple of ways they were incredibly informative.  Such as helping me to see exactly what my vibration is that I’ve been sending out to the Universe on both money and weight. 

I’ve got to admit I was kind of shocked, after studying Abraham-Hicks for 7 ½ years, to find out that my vibration around money really is very different from what I thought it was.  But that makes perfect sense, or else I'd be rich. 

It of course led me to question the vibration I’m sending out about my body, being overweight and food in general, which I realized were also very different from what I thought they were. 

Both completely explain why I’ve been so up and down on my path to releasing weight and attracting abundance.  With Abraham I’ve changed so many aspects of my life completely.  I’ve found peace and comfort in a way I never dreamed was possible before.  Yet I’ve never understood why I couldn’t quite extend it over to effect my abundance and weight.

What I discovered is that even though I’ve become a very positive and optimistic person, I still have these old tapes running in my subconscious.  Abraham-Hicks has taught me to change my thinking, and I have, at least my conscious thinking.  I do it all the time, but I discovered there are very old scripts that are still playing somewhere deep inside me.  Old belief system thinking that may not seem or feel all that powerful, but simply by their existence powerfully effect my vibration.  So much so that no matter how happily I walk through my day, the combination of new thinking and old beliefs keeps me stuck where I am and recreating more of the same in my life.

I honestly never before thought as vividly in terms of what I’m transmitting to the Universe.  Intellectually I accepted myself as a vibrational being, but I didn’t think of myself as a transmitter, or about what messages I’m actually sending out to Source.  It was really eye opening.

When I dug into those old subconscious scripts I found some pretty powerful and negative stuff still lingering there.  Basically my vibration has become that I’m a very happy, fat woman.  I’m a very Spiritual, fat woman.  I’m a peaceful, joyous and did I mention . . . fat woman.  Yeah, that’s a vibration that’s sure to recreate more happy fatness in my life.  I’ve got the same thing going on in my thinking with money too.

As negative as that may sound, I can’t tell you how grateful I am to be seeing this for the first time.  To actually get a feeling for what and how I’m vibrating.  It all makes so much sense to me in regard to what I’ve been receiving.

So I’ve been really digging into my vibration lately, I’ve been looking at exactly what my mindset is when I’m sitting in the drive-thru waiting for my fast food super hamburger or footlong coney.  I’ve been thinking about my vibration when I dig into that bag of chips or when I head back to the refrigerator, even though I’m not hungry.

At those times there is no desperation, I’ve eliminated desperation from my life.  However there is no passion either.  It’s more of a numbed feeling of doing something by rote.  Doing something I’ve been doing so long in the same way that I don’t even realize it’s contributing to my vibration.

This brings me back to my tapestry, the fact that everything is interconnected in my life.  I don't know if I ever would have thought of what my weight vibration is had it not been for me looking for abundance answers.  With it I also received a blossoming sense how all of the areas of my life are Spiritual, and that they are all related to one big answer.  My vibration and what I’m transmitting out to the Universe is that answer . . . what I’m transmitting about my weight, my value, abundance, family, health . . . everything.

So yes, I’m truly grateful and happy to be aware of this, to begin to understand overall what makes up my vibration.  Because that means I’m on the path to changing it.  In fact the changes have already started, just my awareness of it started the process of changing it immediately.

Next, I learn how to take control of my vibration and begin being selective about what messages I transmit to Spirit.  Sounds pretty exciting to me.

So, what are you vibrating/transmitting?

Much Love,
Tigerlily