My Mom’s crossing and my experience of it was a catalyst for me.  It feels almost as if saying goodbye to the physical presence of my Mom was as much a “Grand Opening” ceremony for the rest of my life as it was a beloved releasing of the way we were.  And I know, that along with Spirit my Mom and all the rest of my spiritual guides and angels, are working together to inspire me to amazing new desires, experiences and clarity.

Actually I deeply feel the mastery of the Universe in my life these last 6 months or so, so much more than ever before.  I feel intimately attached to the power that determines the tides, sends the wind and arranges for all the synchronicities/coincidences in life. 

A couple of weeks after my Mom crossed, my sister received a free reading from a hugely talented channel, Ann Albers (http://www.visionsofheaven.com/).  A friend had made the appointment and then not been able to keep it so she passed it along to my sister.  Ann, the channel has a very long waiting list for new clients and is booked a year in advance, so the timing was nothing less than a miracle.

It was a wonderful reading for my sister and it brought a sense of peace to all of us, just hearing from Mom for the first time after her crossing.  For me, while I already was at peace with her passing, the reading still gave me a further sense of completion and peace.

Mom extolled about how good it felt to be out of her old, worn out body and how amazing it was on the other side.  She beamed about how wonderful it was to be with my Father again after so many years, and she admitted that she had missed him much more than she had tried to let on to us.  She even joked about how if she’d known it was this wonderful, she’d have gone a whole lot earlier!

The thing she said that touched me the deepest by it’s incredible beauty was she described the moment of her passing.  She said while she was completely ready to go, her only concern was for us . . . her girls,  she so wanted it to be easy on us.  She said when the final moment came, as she was laying in the hospital bed and she felt the gentle and familiar presence of my Fathers arms wrapping around her.  It felt so wonderful after all those years that all she did was simply let go into his embrace . . . and that was it . . . she crossed over.

The peace of that simply astounds me and warms my soul.

I knew as soon as I heard the reading, I had to have a reading of my own, so I contacted Ann and asked her if she could put me on her waiting list.  She was so kind, and offered to bump me to the front of her list because I was “family”, she had really enjoyed reading for my sister and adored the loving energy of my parents.  The Universe went to work and within a few weeks she had an opening on her incredibly booked schedule which she offered and I jumped on.

In the meantime while I waited for my appointment, I was surprised by growing desires in me to eat healthier.  I was feeling more intrigued by brightly colored peppers than I was a brightly colored bag of chips.  I noticed feeling more satisfied with a salad, and truly surprising . . . less dressing . . . than I was with a serving of chili cheese fries.  I was really enjoying the changes in me and the feeling of surprise they ignited in me.  I  became enamored with that feeling of being surprised and I wanted more, bigger, I wanted to feel astounded. 

I had felt it a few times lately, and before that I hadn’t felt that particular emotion for a very long time.  That feeling of absolute awe.  The feeling of something bigger than all of us . . . in control . . . strutting her stuff for out benefit.  That feeling of delightful surprise mixed with knowing and awe.  

I had been asking Grace to astound me for a week or so.  I didn’t try to put boundaries on it, or a timeframe, I just asked Spirit to astound me in delightful ways and then I accepted that I had been heard and I waited in expectation for when and what would come.

You've asked; the Universe is doing it's work; it is answering.  Your work is to get into this place where you joyfully receive it.  You can't take score about when it's coming or where it's coming, or how it's coming. In other words, you accept, in this faith-based attitude, it is coming, and all is well. And as you do that, Ahhhhhhhhh.  Excerpted from an Abraham-Hicks (abraham-hicks.com) workshop in North Los Angeles CA on March 2, 2002

About a  week before my reading I was coming home from work on the expressway and it was one of those strange days, with dark clouds on one side of the road and the sun glimmering on the other.  I had been flying along with the rest of the traffic at 70MPH but came up behind a car going slower.  I was in the slow lane and looked back to see about getting over and passing it, but then the thought struck me “what’s your hurry?” I was getting off at the next stop a mile or so ahead, why was I rushing?  So I slowed down and enjoyed the bizarre sky, both aspects of it the dark and the light.  It really was a beautiful day.

About 10 minutes later, I was slowing down for a red light when I felt my tire start going flat, by the time I got to the intersection, it was completely down to the rim!  I pulled into the turn lane because I knew there was a tire store within two blocks.  I made it around the corner and limped into the store with a huge smile on my face.  I couldn’t stop thinking of the difference between this event and what would have happened if it had blown as I was flying down the interstate!

Within 10 minutes I had another tire put on (and even got a great deal on it) and was pulling back out of the parking lot.  I certainly felt the hand of Spirit in those circumstances and I was definitely in awe.

I considered the whole experience pretty astounding and I was just gushing to Grace how while it might have not been what I was expecting, I still deeply appreciated her answer to my request!

I was still wallowing in my bliss as I went to the grocery store down the street.  It was where I was headed when the tire went flat.  I walked through the grocery store buying veggies and fruit with a manic grin on my face, loving the feeling of being answered by Grace.  As I walked out the door I couldn’t help but notice the weather, the sun was simply beaming from the left and as I looked toward the right where the thunderstorm had moved to, amongst the dark clouds I saw the most astounding rainbow I’ve ever seen in my life. 

It encompassed the entire horizon, a full arch.  I turned to face it and to the right it looked as if it ended somewhere down the road a way and to the left, the other end looked like it ended at my home a couple of miles the other way.

I stood there until I realized my mouth was gaping wide open and I was standing in the middle of a lane in a parking lot.  I looked around and there were about 8 other people all doing the same thing I was doing, staring at this beautiful present in complete awe.  The guy closest to me was snapping shots with his camera phone.

I’ve only seen a few rainbows in my life and I’ve never seen the full arch from one part of the horizon to the other.  I’d seen pictures of them and shot out rockets of desire to see one myself one day.  But I never dreamed, in answer to my vague asking, God would provide such a gift to all of us who saw it that day.

This wasn’t just a matter of “wow that’s cool” for me, it was absolutely one of the most amazing natural experiences of my life (so far).  And to have it happen in succession with the tire blowing and knowing it was all an answer to my asking . . . well I was pretty much in a state of wonderful shock.  My request had been most profoundly answered and done so in a way that was much, much bigger and grander than I ever could have dreamed.

I took it as a sign that if I just kept focusing on my wonderful life, be grateful for every aspect of it, and leave the details to Spirit, the how’s and the when’s,  my life too would turn out much bigger, much grander than I could ever dream.

I stood there for a long time in amazement, just wallowing in my bliss.  

Eventually I followed that rainbow all the way home.

I’ll post part two of my adventures soon.

Tigerlily