Lessons from my Mother . . . It's ALL about love.
First I want to deeply apologize to anyone who reads my posts regularly for not posting this month. When I created Allowing A Perfect Body I did so with the promise to myself that I would not only be consistent, I would be prolific. I made those promises for very self-centered reasons, because I knew this avenue of expression is the best thing possible for me to find the answers, and the steady path to my ultimate desires, of achieving complete health, a comfortable body weight and allow my own body's state of perfection. I knew it would take attention, focus and passion.
I also knew developing the same attributes would be necessary here if Allowing A Perfect Body were to become the loving place, the Spiritual tool I dreamed it could be for others.
However I am deeply involved in being a primary caretaker for my 91 year old mother. She has a very weak heart and various precarious health issues, which she has created out of her "aging" belief system. And with which I am honored to be able to help her at this amazing time in her life.
My Mother is a dream, she's a sweet little old lady who is always smiling and a complete pleasure to be around in spite of living in a body that is quietly letting her incredible spirit down. And while being with her so much, and watching as she bravely faces the challenges she encounters, has led me to many new awarenesses about myself, it has not provided me with the time to write as much as I promised myself I would or anywhere near as much as I honestly would like.
I see that sometimes I attract situations where I have no choice but to move my focus from myself and whatever situation I am intently focused upon, to something more precious, so that I am forced into a place of relaxing and allowing.
As I watch my Mom deal with a total absence of appetite, a complete disregard for any and all types of food, an unpredictable digestive tract and so many other things she considers "normal" aging issues (according also to the doctors and Hospice professionals), I see so clearly how thoughts create.
I see how her beliefs have created this exact experience for her. I see how by her expectation and acceptance of it being "just the way it is" she has the strength to smile through each step. I see how my focus has created my experience and I also clearly see how my thoughts have co-created my part in this stage of her life as an example and reminder for me of the beauty of choice. A reminder so I never forget that I too choose my focus and what I focus upon . . . I too create.
I realize that sometimes the best thought is simply one of appreciating the sweet moments we have with a loved one. When I look at her sweet face and the sparkle in her aged eyes, and I know the time will come when those joys are no longer physically possible for me, and everything else . . . absolutely everything else in my life gently falls quietly into perspective.
What I've realized again is that it's really all about love. My life, her life, all life is about love. Every moment with her is about love. I'm blessed with a Mother who adores me, totally and unconditionally.
Oh don't get me wrong, growing up there were many, many things about me she would have gladly changed. For as long as I can remember back, the biggest one was always my weight. I got most of my erroneous ideas about my weight, my value and myself from well meaning but misguided advice and criticism from my parents and family. In fact, I thank God (as Abraham says) that others cannot create in our reality, because if my parents had been able to create my life without my permission . . . while I would have been thin, I would not have been happy. I would have been a thin, obedient and quiet woman . . . but not a particularly happy or inspired one.
However I learned from Abraham (Abraham-Hicks.com) to let go of the past and see my Mom for who she is, an amazing and creative spirit here to experience life, to have fun. To smile and laugh, to make mistakes, to create lavishly and most importantly to love. When I let go of the past, all that is left is total, unconditional and incredibly deep love.
Mom has also been blessed by my focus on Abraham and LOA. She's watched for years as my personal Spiritual evolution has developed and she's felt the acceptance I found for her, and she has come to a place of complete acceptance for who I am also. She has opened up to shower me with love beyond anything I've ever expected. She loves me in the way Abraham tells us Source loves us.
The Universe knows you and the universe adores you. If you will allow it, you will feel the love that flows to you and through you. You are always seen, always understood -- and always loved. We are all working towards the same goal: JOY. Whether it seems like it or not -- you are all working towards the same ultimate goal of joy. You are just approaching things in different ways, and all of it is working. Feelings of love, joy, passion, exhilaration, fun, interest... are indications of your vibrational match to Well-being. Excerpted from an Abraham-Hicks workshop in Asheville, NC on May 1, 2005
As I look in her adoring eyes, I realize life is about finding a way to love myself the way my Mom loves me . . . the way Source loves me . . . deeply, completely and unconditionally. Life is taking care of myself the way I lovingly take care of my Mom.
I realize the key is in letting go of my own past, the same way I have with her. Letting go of my own past mistakes, my silly and erroneous thinking, my doubts, fears and "failures" and allowing myself to adore the spirit I am, here to laugh, play, create, experience and love.
While caring for my Mom, I watch life fall into perspective. As I see the love she feels for me reflected in her eyes, I see the bigger picture, the one of confidence, where I no longer need to worry or doubt. She makes if feel simple, as easy as settling quietly into the knowing place of "it will happen" and "all is on the way to me now". And probably most importantly, "I am deeply loved" and "I deserve my dreams".
What we just said to you is we wish that you felt about you like we feel about you. And when you begin to feel about you like we feel about you, everything that you've ever desired will become a reality instantaneously. There is great love here for you. And, as always, we are incomplete. Excerpted from an Abraham-Hicks workshop in Boulder, CO on June 2, 2001
I realize once we accept Abraham's assertation that we are extensions of Source energy, embodying a physical form to experience every aspect of leading edge creation, and that we ourselves are the creators . . . then how can we continue to believe that anything is impossible or even difficult for us? Even a weight issue carried all our lives?
I mean . . . would losing weight be difficult for God?
And through what avenue would Source accomplish a such a lifetime (for me) goal?
You are liquid love in physical bodies, wanting, more than life itself, because it is life itself, to adore the vessel that's you through which this Source Energy flows. You are God. You are Source. You are creator. Excerpted from an Abraham-Hicks workshop in San Raphael, CA on February 21, 2004
I know any situation is as easy for Spirit as Spirit believes it should be. I also know that obtaining my body's peak place of physical perfection will be as easy as I "believe" it will be.
And I know that the only path to my dreams is the one paved by love.
I will write more often, thank you for reading.
Much love,
Tigerlily
Dear Tigerlily,
This is beautiful beyond words can express - my love is with you and your mom as you take this journey together.
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