Remembering Who I Am!
When I feel beautiful, graceful, and entitled I am treated like a graceful, entitled and beautiful woman. And if I feel uncomfortable, unworthy and unappreciated, I attract people and circumstances that will reflect exactly that back to me to reinforce those feelings.
This became clear to me when I realized an old pattern I had in the past. I could not walk down a road, other than the one I lived on, without attracting a pick up truck full of young men who would whoop, holler and call out obscene names and/or suggestions to me, all based on the size of my body. It happened often enough it was uncanny.
Back then I believed the reason was because the world was simply full of insensitive, mean spirited, and unhappy boys in their teens and twenties. But it did seem odd to me that it happened nearly every time I took a walk. It happened to me from Daytona Beach to Detroit, and from Manhattan to Mexico.
At some point after discovering Abraham and the Law Of Attraction, I realized why it really had happened to me. It made perfect sense. I used to walk, radiating the vibration of a target. Not a victim . . . a target, they are two different things. If I have felt like a victim I would have had much worse circumstances than just being verbally abused.
The truth is I draped myself in a vibrational bullseye when I put on my walking shoes, because that was the overwhelming vibration I carried with me everywhere I went.
Now the amazing thing was once I realized that I had actually attracted the attitude by my vibration, I was able to take a huge and cumbersome chip off my shoulder. I found I didn’t have to be angry at young men anymore, not even the ones in the past who had hurt me. They were just being themselves, reacting to my vibration in a way I fully expected them too. There’s no righteousness in placing blame for an attitude when you yourself have attracted the behavior.
And honestly at this point I’m grateful to them, because they taught me a powerful lesson about how I see myself. They taught me to remember who I am.
That intention, to remember “who I am” has been a major focus for me the last year or so.
I read a post from someone who made a suggestion to pick a role to play for a day. She suggested it as a fun experience, and it sounded like a great idea to me. I tried it and it was not only a really fun exercise, but held unexpected opportunities for many new awarenesses.
Basically you choose a day and assign yourself a role to play for the day. A Queen, a Princess, A Movie Star, A Goddess, An Angel Visiting Physical, A Fairy Tale Character, A Billionaire, An Heiress, A Super Model, A Ballet Star, A Starship Captain, A Famous Singer/Dancer? It can be anything that is in the realm of being a “dreams come true” identity.
You simply go with your intuition and decide what title feels good to you and then look for the feeling place of your role. It can be done any day under any circumstances, and it can be as elaborate and public or as low-keyed and private as you want it to be. There is some preplanning involved, or pre-thinking rather, deciding what you want to be that day, how she would act, feel, dress, present herself.
I decided the first time I did it I would be a queen, I wore something special that reminded me of who my identity was for the day. I did it the first time on a day I was at work, and I had to periodically remind myself throughout the day “Remember who you are!” But each time I did, I got a little boost of fun and held my head a little higher.
I choose being a queen specifically for the abundance and entitlement that comes with that title. It was interesting to think about what feelings I would have experienced as a queen. I had never before considered if Queen Victoria ever wondered about where to go for lunch or if she needed to pick up the dry cleaning. And I doubt sincerely if Queen Elizabeth is overly concerned about her figure, I’ve never seen a picture of her in a spinning class or on a treadmill. She probably takes her constitutional by walking “the grounds” with her corgi’s.
It was amazing to spend time trying to determine the mindset of a queen, it’s just not something most of us think about in detail, but something that is definitely worthwhile. For me that was what the exercise was all about, expanding my thinking and feeling. How would it feel if I were that powerful, that wealthy, that confident and secure?
What I didn’t expect was to have my role, my feelings about myself for the day be directly reflected back to me, though I should have. I chose to be a Queen I should have expected to have doors opened automatically for me, which is what happened all day long. People brought me coffee without asking, they asked me about lunch before I had the chance to do the asking.
I realized that if I had chosen to be a billionaire or heiress, money and opportunities would have flowed to me throughout the day. I learned whatever delightful experience I expect, I will attract to me.
It was a delightful way to exercise my imagination in the midst of living my “real life”. No one needed to know what was on my mind or why I was smiling so much. In fact part of the fun for me was that I was involved in a secret no one else knew about. A secret that attracted the best from them without them even knowing why!
I found out I can go about my work day, vacuum my living room floor, pick up the dry cleaning and still be a Movie Star in my heart!
I decided to do it again whenever I wanted a little boost to my vibration, with different identities each time. It really is a lot of fun trying on new roles. And something about it stays with me. By being the queen for a day, I was somehow able to more easily see myself as worthy of the privileges she experiences every day. It becomes easier every time I do it to embrace what their vibrational experience may be.
And I made sure to sit down at the end of the day and write down in as much detail as possible, how that day, that particular identity, felt to me. What made me hold my head higher. What resonated with my heart. How it reminded me I am a divine extension of Source energy. I wrote about feeling purposeful and irreplaceable. About being born with a birthright too, one of confidence regarding my meaning in the world. I realized that I am just as important to Universal expansion as any queen that ever lived. That my perspective is unique and necessary too.
I realized as I wrote that it was so much more than a childlike exercise to expand my thinking. It had been proof that the vibration I radiate, whatever that may be is exactly what I will attract back to me.
I've noticed my attitude changed so much about myself that my interactions with strangers everywhere I go have changed. Doors are always opened for me, people smile at me automatically, conversations are warm and friendly. None of those things were necessarily true until I started to feel like a warm, happy, loving woman who deserved to be treated that way.
This fun little exercise was an opportunity for the Universe to remind me . . .
“Remember who you are!”
Blessings,
Tigerlily

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