Hello,

I’ve had some big lessons lately in the power of decision.  There is simply nothing more powerful than making a determined and definite decision about something.  For me, it’s usually derived from the feeling of being entrenched in contrast to the point where there feels like there is no other answer.  When I finally do stomp my foot down and decide that I will create something different, it’s truly an amazing . . . feeling at least for a while . . .

Power In Decision

You could not begin to decide what is wanted if you did not have the contrast of what is not wanted—and from your broader Nonphysical perspectives, as creators, you understand that what a decision is is a literal focusing of Energy. In other words, everything is about Energy, and the way you express it, the way you focus it, the way you channel it, the way you guide it, the way you utilize it, the way you become a part of it, the way you get involved in it. The way you become a creative force, utilizing Energy, is by your perspective, by your belief, by your attention, by your focus, by your decision.  Can you feel the difference in the power in saying, “I would like to have that or I want that” and “I’ve decided.” In decision, there is simply a focusing of Energy, and our dominant intent, as we are interacting with you here—is to help you understand, without any question whatsoever, how to know, how to sense or feel, whether you are a vibrational match to your own decision. Excerpted from the Abraham-Hicks Quarterly Journal - Oct/Nov/Dec 1997

The decisions I’ve been making lately are as varied as the many aspects of my life.  But none is so strong within me as the decision that I WILL RELEASE THIS WEIGHT ONCE AND FOR ALL!  I am simply through thinking in terms of “trying”, or “hoping”.  I have decided this physical incarnation of mine will not end in me still wanting to be thin, I will accomplish my goal and live as a thin person for the rest of my time in physical.  I will do it.  I will experience that reality.

I am through living in this body and feeling almost helpless to change it.  In my past, that decision has always been made in desperation out of the discomfort of contrast, and it has never lasted much past the easing of the contrast.  I’ve known I could change my weight in increments for a limited amount of time.  However never has the ultimate knowing that “I can do this, once and for all” lasted for any longer than the actual weight loss has, usually much less.  I’ve never had much faith in my decision making or my ability to let the weight finally go.

What I’ve discovered recently is that making a decision to do something once and for all and faith itself are intrinsically linked.  The key to one is in the other.  I mean a decision, no matter how firm, will fizzle pretty quickly without any faith in oneself to accomplish the goal.  And faith alone will eventually attract what we want, but not as surely as it does when reinforced by the decision that we “will have” whatever it is.

Due to Jerry Hicks often discussed recommendation, I’ve been reading Napoleon Hill’s Think And Grow Rich.  In the book Hill discusses faith as being a choice.  I’ve honestly never thought about it that way before.  I always thought faith was something you either had or were lacking, and the idea that I could actually create faith in my life was a new thought to me.  I’ve felt pretty much the same way about making decisions, when contrast is high, decisions come easy, but sustaining those decisions to me has always seemed something more involved with fate than choice.

But then I read Hill talk about faith as a choice . . . he says it’s something that can be induced and developed and he even tells us how, and I love it.

I simply adore discovering that faith can be cultivated.  That’s a concept I’ve woefully pleaded to better understand most of my life.  “God please, tell me how to have more faith . . . in you, in myself, in my ability to create my life.” 

I love knowing that even the amount of faith I have is within my power to choose. 

That realization also led to me seeing that sustaining the decisions I make are exactly the same . . . that both the determination of decision making and faith itself require daily focus and choice.

Make a decision about what you want, focus your attention there, and find the feeling-place of it -- and you are there instantly. There is no reason for you to suffer or struggle your way to or through anything.  Excerpted from the Abraham-Hicks book Ask and It Is Given, page 291

I don’t know exactly what tools will work best to get me to my goal, however to be honest, I find that to be the most exciting part of the process.  Delightfully expecting what awarenesses Spirit has on the way to me to help me on this path.  I’m learning to trust myself and to look to Source for the inspiration to stay determined, faith filled and to succeed. 

Make a decision that your action is action that is inspired rather than action that is motivated.  Excerpted from the Abraham-Hicks workshop Tarrytown, NY on October 18, 1998

Understanding that making a decision and sticking with it, and that the amount of faith I have is within my control are huge concepts for me.  I honestly think that those two blocks in my understanding were bigger issues for me than the actual weight I carry on my body.

Human perspective says, “Here I am in an incomplete place and I would like to get over there, and I would do it with magic or I would do it with trickery or I would do it with a metaphysical guru . . .  I would do anything that it takes to get over there. That’s what I want.” And we say, no that isn’t what you want. What you want is the excuse to get to go from here to over there.  It’s the day-to-day unfolding.  It’s the meaning of interaction.  It’s the stimulation of thought.  It’s the new ideas that flow to you.  It’s the thrill of formulating a decision and knowing you’re nowhere near vibrational harmony with the decision.  And then it’s the thrill of getting a little closer to it and feeling the relief of it clicking into place, and then the thrill of feeling the expanded thought bringing expanded information and different people and different understanding.  And then it’s the thrill of chewing on that and coming to a greater conclusion.  And then its the thrill of knowing I’m still not quite in vibrational harmony with the new expanded vision.  It is so satisfying to mold Energy, more than molding clay, more than painting on a board, more than writing words in a book. There is nothing in all of the Universe more delicious than to be physically focused with this dramatic contrast that abounds and feeling the clarity of your thought and the culminating of your decision and the alignment of your Energy with the decision and then feeling the forces of the Universe, the Energy that creates worlds, flowing with you for the promotion of that idea. That’s the reason you exist.  Excerpted from the Abraham-Hicks workshop in Napa, CA on February 27, 1997

I’m beginning to understand that it’s not about the pounds I carry around as much as it is finding the answers to the questions I carry.  Despite my size, I see that the questions weigh more on my mind than the weight does on my body, and that’s pretty astounding to me.

I’m so excited to be developing the tools I know will expand my life and lead me to achieve my Hearts Desire. 

I will do this!

Just watch me . . .

Tigerlily

I'm back to enjoying eating healthy!

It’s not a New Year’s resolution, it’s more of a flat out, I’ve had enough . . . it’s time to create something different decision.

For me, 2009 was about taking Spiritual responsibility for my life and seeing myself as the creator that I truly am. About accepting that I’ve created every aspect of what I’m living and even bigger for me . . . accepting that I can change and recreate every aspect of it anew.

That second part has been the hard one for me. I don’t know how to explain but it’s easy for me to accept that I’ve created where I am, but not so easy to believe that I can create something different. I know that sounds silly, but it’s how I’ve felt in the past. 2009 has been about me coming into my own power, me finally being able to see that I am the creator, I am the one who chooses what I experience.

So a couple of days ago, I stepped on the scale, I knew I was getting up there, and I wasn’t surprised that the scale reflected back to me the highest weight of my life. I’ve regained everything I released before and 10 pounds on top of that. I’m only 20 pounds away from a benchmark I never, ever, EVER want to experience. In seeing the number on the scale and accepting responsibility for obtaining it, I began to feel a quite determination. I felt determined to stop the upward climb I’ve been on and instead return to what I know works for me and go the other way.

No fireworks, or rockets declaring I’ve had enough, just a subtle, quiet determination that I want to create something different, completely different, and the wonderful feeling of confidence that I can do exactly that.

So that day, I began loading on the vegetables and enjoying every minute of it. In fact I'm surprised how great they’ve been tasting considering it's winter and none of them are really fresh like in summer. I’ve made big pots of veggie soups and stews, loaded with fresh vegetables and seasonings, but very little fat.

I've got such a wonderful mind set that even veggies I was never that fond of in the past are tasting wonderful to me now. I usually feel that there are no fresh vegetables when there is snow on the ground. But I’ve discovered that was just an excuse for not eating healthy in the winter, there are lots of fresh vegetable choices when the snow is here, maybe not as many as in summer, but still lots of choices! << MORE >>

I’m huge! I'm bigger than I’ve ever been before in my life. And yet my weight, recently has became an equally huge gift to me. I’ve mentioned this before, that when I look in the mirror I cannot deny what a powerful creator I am simply because of physical proof of the amount of extra weight on my body.

Creating is creating and every ounce is there, staring back at me as evidence that I am a powerful creator. Not creating what I want necessarily, but powerfully creating what I’ve been focused upon for all these years.

I look around and most people couldn’t possibly eat enough to get to where I am, weight wise, today. With my mind I have turned my body into a fat storing machine extraordinaire. Oh, I know the average American is overweight, but the majority of them are between 20 and maybe 100 pounds overweight. I’m not talking about average, I’m talking about extraordinary weight.

I know this is going to sound funny, but just as a professional athlete must believe in their ability to be successful, they must use mental focus and determination to obtain success, a truly fat person uses the same skills, they just don’t do it consciously. To really be extraordinarily fat, one must believe in their ability to be fat wholeheartedly. Like the athlete must believe in their ability to win, fat people must believe that fat is a distinctly possible reality for them.

The average person may be able think of themselves with a few extra pounds, they may be fearful that if they overindulge over the holidays they may put on 5 or even up to 20 extra pounds, but to carry around the extra weight I carry would be incomprehensible to them. I know because I occasionally see it in their eyes when they look at me, not disapproval . . . incomprehension. “How did you create that?”

For the truly fat person, that is the question. Because in my experience we don’t believe we really created it at all. Let’s face it, if we really could connect that that bag of chips was a direct link to the huffing and puffing after climbing a set of stairs, we’d drop the bag. There is a mysterious thing that happens when we pop open that bag, we honestly don’t intellectually get that those wonderful tasting chips can harm us in any way. How could something that feels so good in that moment be bad for us? As we fill our mouths, we disassociate what is going in our bodies with what extra is on our bodies. Until the delight turns to guilt and pervasive social ideas of what we are doing sinks in and that vibration turns our bodies into fat making machines.<< MORE >>

Hello Friends,

I have been all over the map lately with releasing weight and everything else in my life.  I’m in a place of big upheaval and I am so welcoming the changes that are coming.  I’ve been asking for fresh awareness for a while now and it’s coming in from every direction.  The wonderful thing is that as it comes in from each area of my life, I can see how it’s all interconnected. 

This Spiritual/Physical life is like a tapestry with a million different colored threads coming together to create an amazing picture.  I’m not too sure about the people who actually create tapestries, but in my case, I can never tell how one colored thread is going to interact with another, but I’m beginning to understand they are all connected.  Each one of them a path to the answer to the others. 

What I’m trying to say here is that it’s come to my awareness lately that all of the areas of my life that I’m less than thrilled with are all part of a Spiritual plan to guide me toward the one big answer to them all.  I’m beginning to see that there is only one answer.  Which Abraham-Hicks has been saying for years. 

Someone said, "I have 27 questions." And we said, we have one answer: You like knowing that you are the creator of your experience. You like knowing that everyone else is too. You like knowing that Source supports you in everything that you desire, and that there is nothing that you can identify, whether you articulate it or not, that the Universe withholds from you. All things are given in the moment that you ask.  When you are specific about what you want, and you find that Path of Least Resistance, and Energy flows through you toward your inspired idea--that is life at its very best.  Excerpted from Abraham-Hicks Stop Fixing And Start Savoring
 

Quite honestly the simplicity of their message sometimes tends to be too simple for me, I’ve found recently that it’s a little more complex for me than “just look for the better feeling thought”.  I’ve been doing that for years and there haven’t been the big changes in my life for which I've been looking.  Not the changes I’ve been wanting anyway and I’ve never been able to figure out what is blocking me.

I’m not only back on my blog, but I’m back into the Allowing A Perfect Body vibration! I’m back to thinking healthy, eating healthy, and being healthy! And it feels wonderful!!!

I received Abraham-Hicks “Think And Get Slim: Natural Weight Loss CD. I listened to it the first time and was thrilled with how many unique thoughts and potential awareness it brought to me. It’s going to be so much to mull over and write about.

As is common for me with Abraham-Hicks, I will listen to it over and over and each time I will get something different out of it. It is just full of amazing weight related information, awareness and inspiration.

Overall I think the biggest thing I got out of it listening the first time is a confirmation that when I am in the Allowing A Perfect Body mindset, when I get absolutely convinced I’m doing the best things for myself, when I get excited about releasing weight, when I’m eating rainbows of fresh veggies and fruits, when I’m lighthearted, excited and absolutely pumped about creating a healthy, thinner life . . . that’s when the weight just disappears from my body.

Looking back on last year when I lost 50 pounds (post surgery it was actually more than 50), I realize that when I was in that exquisite Allowing A Perfect Body attitude, releasing the weight wasn’t hard at all. The hardest part at the time was the logistics of eating; . . . what . . . when . . . how much . . . where. That was the only slightly complicated thing in releasing the weight. The rest of it was really automatic once I got into the place of allowing.

The place of allowing . . . lately Abraham-Hicks is calling it the vortex, that place where everything flows naturally, the attitude of self love. It’s the mindset where we offer little if any resistance and allow our dreams to materialize. Abraham talks about it a lot in the CD, in fact they always come back to that in every conversation. It’s the key to attracting anything . . . thinness, money/abundance, success, love or anything else.<< MORE >>

I’ve been walking this intentional Spiritual path for 16 years, and I’ve been a student of Abraham-Hicks for 7, and I had developed to a place where I was very comfortable in my understanding of the Universe, my role in it, and my Spiritual beliefs. I believed that being Spiritually centered was just who I was now, it was how I thought about life, and how I reacted to everything. I never got angry, I rarely got even frustrated, most of the time I was truly a happy, loving and Spiritually focused person. I had begun to take it for granted.

When I look back now, the last few months illuminated for me that I had become a bit arrogant about it all. I was proud of myself for being a woman who never got sucked into anyone else’s frustrations, much less their battles. One who was always deeply serene, centered and joyful. I was a voice of peace, love and soothing when interacting with others. I simply didn't allow anyone else's contrast to effect my life, I refused to let my vibration be lowered to any other level.

Sure I experienced contrast as a part of life, but I chose not to let it determine how I felt about my life. And through Abraham I realized being that feeling good was my birthright. What I didn’t realize that it was something that I had to hold on to and consciously nurture in order to maintain it. I thought I'd become immune to feeling disconnected. I mean I had my days of feeling more connected than others, even weeks, but I always felt my connection was a major part of who I was, something I could completely depend upon being there for me always.

The teachings of Abraham taught me that I get to choose my thoughts and how I react to everything. In 2008 I Gracefully lived through first, my dear Mother’s crossing over, and then faced major surgery feeling strong in my beliefs. I faced both with my Spiritual strength never for a moment wavering. After those events, I was so Spiritually confident that I didn’t think anything could seriously shake me, I thought my Spirituality was secure regardless what happened in my life. But in the aftermath of the anesthesia, my physical recovery, my old habits of self nurturing, and many other things, an overall feeling of numbness overcame me and I began to feel very lost.

My life passion had been expanding my thinking and creating my life through meditation and reading Spiritual books, but I got to a point where I felt so disconnected I could hardly open anything enlightening. When I did, I felt resistance, or worse, numbness. I didn’t know why I had become so resistant to the very part of me that had meant the most to me before. I just missed it terribly. << MORE >>

Looking back I see clearly why I attracted the weight back to me. The only way I ever learned to comfort myself is with food, and this past year has been one of necessary self comforting for me. I was shaken physically and emotionally much more by the surgery than I admitted or realized and I slipped back so easily into old patterns of eating, thinking and allowing mindlessness.

Spirituality for me is like the ocean tides, some times it’s easy for me to keep my focus and live magically. Other times I have to work at it, as if the tides are out and I have to make the effort to remember who I am, what I believe and the truth of life. But this year has been a new experience for me, I haven’t felt anything like it since I started on my Spiritual path, I haven’t felt this . . . well . . . lost before.

I can’t fully explain where I’ve been, how I’ve been feeling or what my thinking has been, and as an Aber, I realize that dwelling on those things isn’t a good idea anyway. The closest to describing it is I simply felt lost. There was no true intention behind my actions, only following my ego and allowing myself to do whatever it took to make myself feel “better”. Even though I never seemed to get to the feeling of better, only a feeling of more, more, more. That endless craving to fill the void.

For those of you familiar with Abraham-Hicks Emotional Scale, (I’ve created a separate entry for it, see Abraham-Hicks The Emotional Scale) I usually live in the top seven emotions and rarely dip to 8 or below. But this past year I’ve been dwelling between 7 and 16. Never truly upset, just numbly going from mild contentment to feelings of discouragement.

I’ve been an Aber long enough though that I don’t feel bad about this past year. I realize it had it’s purpose. I appreciate where I was much more because of it. I have a much more clear picture of what it means to follow my Heart’s Desire. I have a much deeper appreciation of the path I was on and how important it truly is to me. I feel so much love for this blog and how connected it is to be releasing weight and creating the life I want to be living.

It’s amazing to me the strength I feel, flowing in through my fingers as I type these words. As if my connection to Source, the Angels and the Universe is circling through me, my fingers on the keyboard, the internet, each of you, the Universe and back to me. And with each wave, I feel stronger and stronger in my determination and resolve to Allow My Perfect Body to blossom.

I guess I had to loose a bit of my connection in order to genuinely appreciate how unimaginatively wonderful it is to feel connected again. << MORE >>

Abraham-Hicks Emotional Scale

1. Joy/Knowledge/Empowerment/Freedom/Love/Appreciation
2. Passion
3. Enthusiasm/Eagerness/Happiness
4. Positive Expectation/Belief
5. Optimism
6. Hopefulness
7. Contentment
8. Boredom
9. Pessimism
10. Frustration/Irritation/Impatience
11. Overwhelming
12. Disappointment
13. Doubt
14. Worry
15. Blame
16. Discouragement
17. Anger
18. Revenge
19. Hatred/Rage
20. Jealousy
21. Insecurity/Guilt/Unworthiness
22. Fear/Grief/Depression/Despair/Powerlessness

I’d say that’s a pretty darn good way to spend my summer!

When I started this I couldn’t look at the whole picture, it was simply too overwhelming so I set up a first goal to release 50 pounds. Since I know it’s important to set clear goals, my intention was that it be “mostly belly fat”. That’s where I need to release it most. However I said “mostly” because I wanted to stay open minded and trust my body to release it from wherever it needs to come off me first.

So I’m almost to my first goal and I admit it feels really wonderful. My clothes are all getting big, or at lease very loose and comfortable, and I feel much better. I’m also starting to see the beginning evidence of a female shape to my body again.

This should give you some indication as to how huge I was/am. 43 pounds gone and I’ve not really gone down a whole size, I’m still wearing the clothes I was, they just fit me much better. Not to downplay how important letting go of 43 pounds is, because it’s wonderful. I look much, much different/better when I look in the mirror. However, I still have lots and lots of pounds to release.

So anyone who thinks that the 20, 40, 60, 80, 100+ extra pounds they see in the mirror is intimidating, well darlings, don’t sweat it. Even after 43 pounds, I still have more to release than you do, and if I can do it, so can you!!!

The surprise part however is that I’ve attracted/created one little glitch.

See for years I’ve had this huge belly. Think of 9 months pregnant all the time, or a beer belly extraordinaire. I have one of those belly’s that people see on someone else and they go “tisk, tisk, what a shame. How did she ever let herself get that way?”

There’s a medical term for it, but I honestly find the term so repulsive and degrading I wouldn’t use it if my life depended upon it. I spent a very long time being ashamed of my belly. Lowering my eyes when someone would look at me with ridicule in theirs. Wishing it would just go away. Wondering how it got so big, when it felt like I blinked and went from overweight to huge. I blame it for causing the back pain I’ve experienced for the last few years. I knew carrying the huge weight of pure fat on my front caused excess strain to my back. Yes, I had lots of negative feelings about it, not the least of which were my feelings of helplessness on how I could ever get “rid of it”.

Eventually though with Abraham I learned to look at my massive belly and see it as positive evidence of my sensational creative power. I created something rare in this world of six pack abs, navel rings and flat bikini/Speedo stomachs. Though I created it mostly unconsciously, I eventually learned to take creative responsibility for it none the less. It’s my body, and my belly and in a socially incomprehensible way, I became very proud of what I’d created. Finding that pride gave me the peace and freedom needed for me to take responsibility for letting it go.<< MORE >>

Hello, Your story is really inspirational. I am really trying to lose this weight I've gained with positive thinking, working out, and eating right but I honestly can say I have not had the great results you have. Maybe you can help me out in figuring out what I am doing wrong?

Thank you so much for your time, Susie

Thank you Susie, it makes me feel so good to know that someone else is inspired by what I’m simply living and sharing.

I want to make sure you understand that I’m as much a student as I am a teacher. I have been finding the answers that work for me, and I love sharing them. However my only claim to expertise is that I am doing it myself, right now. And as I do, I learn and share with you. I give myself much credit for 15 years plus of spiritual work, but I’m creating this as I go. We are all students and teachers, those aspects of us are eternal.

I also want you to know that I’m very proud of you for doing what you are already doing, eating what you consider right, and exercising. It’s just wonderful that you are feeling inspired to begin your own adventure. Join me in giving yourself a great big hug and a pat on the back for creatively taking steps toward something you want very much in your life.

As far as figuring out what you are doing wrong . . . the answer is . . .

Nothing.

You aren’t doing anything wrong. You are simply making choices, and tweaking choices based on what works and what doesn’t work for you.

You can’t do anything wrong, because it’s all part of the learning process. Learning what works for you personally and what doesn’t.

Because . . . and this is very important . . . there is a perfect way for your personally to release weight. A way THAT WORKS perfectly for your life, your body, your health, your Spiritual outlook, your needs, your everything. There IS a way for you to become whatever you dream of becoming, you just have to feel your way to the special things that work for you.

And you can’t make any mistakes as you find you way to what is perfect for you, if something doesn't work, it wasn't wrong, it was just something you tried and discarded. It's not wrong to taste a new food. If it tastes bad to us we don't blame ourselves for tasting it, we just spit it out and try something else.

We just follow our guidance and fine tune our choices until we find what inspires us most and what feels most like our very own answers.

And even when we find the answers that work for us, life continually changes so we are always in a state of trying new things and letting go of old ones that no longer fit us. It’s an ongoing adventure and we simply can’t get it wrong.<< MORE >>